So yesterday I had my first session. After fiddling with the idea for a while, I went ahead and did it! I have heard about Farida through a friend of mine who recently started a “solopreneurship” adventure and in one of her IGTV episodes, she mentioned that she did a career coaching session before starting up.

And since one of my main issues in life currently is, “am I doing what I am supposed to be doing?”, I thought a career coach is what I needed to push down the walls of insecurity and doubt that it’s hovering over me since a while.

I went prepared…during lockdown and beyond, I did a lot of reading in regards to “finding my purpose”, I did 6 different career tests, I wrote down what I love, what I don’t, what is important to me in life and at work, what I am good at, what I am not good at, and what I am passionate about. She was impressed by my preparation.

It was an emotional one hour and a half…I was ready to burst into tears after 20 minutes but I really held on to my willpower for another 20 before spilling them out. I can already hear my old boss saying “see, I was right, you are too emotional”…what I say in response is “I care a lot about this and it means a lot to me, that is why I cried”.

The truth is that being uncomfortable or unsure in your professional life, takes a huge toll on people…especially when you think that we spend most of our waking hours at work. I am just trying to find a way to understand if my current emotional rollercoaster is due to the fact that I am in the wrong job? If I am, but I need to take some action to make it really what I want it to be? or if I should look elsewhere all together and my true potential is still waiting to be discovered.

The session per se was ok, I wasn’t impressed and I wasn’t let down. In all honesty, I didn’t know what to expect…or maybe secretly I thought that she will take out a magic potion and tell me straight to the face what I am supposed to be doing in life. But of course, that is not the way these things go or are supposed to be going. It is meant to be someone that guides you so that YOU can find your own answers. It’s a person that asks the right questions to make you think about your thoughts, behaviors and actions that you will take once you have analyzed the first two elements of the equation.

I always knew that our thoughts control our behavior but sometimes we forget how important it is to control our mind, as it is not always so straightforward for a human being to stop and think about what one is thinking and control it so that we can forge the outcome. We just think and do, and than we cry about the consequences of what we said, done or feel.

I am really looking forward to the next session. I have homework to do, which will share once completed…apparently that is the first wall that I need to jump across to move to the next step of clarity and realization.

I am not 100% sure if this journey of discovery will bring me to stay in the line of work I am in or convince me to pursue something else all together…in the meantime, I am keeping my options open, fiddling with different ideas ( from coaching to interior design ), while I continue this journey of self-discovery towards a better future for my life.